2.03.2012

HAPPY ENDINGS


I LOVE SUGARLAND!!! I heard this song the other day and guess i never had really listened to the words until now.  It made me just think, think about what i am doing, think about what my "happy ending" is. It made me think about how this "happy ending" hasn't always been the same. I had ideas about what i wanted and pursued many different paths to find this "happy ending." I think back on the last 25 years of my life and am in awe at all the things that i have done, things i have learned and people i have met. I had many different goals and many of these goals changed and transformed as i learned and my perspective changed. One of the things i love so much about life is that I AM FREE! My "happy ending" can be completely different from every other person on the planet. I can change what i want and can work towards virtually anything. There were times in my life that my sole focus was school that my "happy ending" was graduation. That each semester my "happy ending" was maintaining a high enough gpa so i didn't have to pay for school. It is interesting how sometimes our end goal or what we believe to be a "happy ending" is completely different than what we had ever anticipated. I focused so much on graduation and gpa that i neglected that time in the middle enjoying the moment while i was just looking for this "happy ending." 

I'm learning that it isn't about the end and as cliche as it is it is true. I think many people already understand this. I am not one of them. I spent many many years looking for a "happy ending" cramming so that i could make it happen faster, studying so i could just "get a degree," reading just so i could "finish the book," making choices so that i could accomplish something. this was done for a number of different reasons. Am i grateful that i did all of those things? YES, but am i learning that there is a better way for me? YES! One thing that is so great about life is that we can do what we want and for some that may be making a list and just going through life trying to check them off. I did that. It didn't bring me the things i thought i would. Not all of the things i have done had a "happy ending." Actually, i take that back, they did, but was it the "ending" i thought it was going to be? NO! Often times i was so focused on that END that i didn't enjoy all of the "happy" times along the way, and i didn't enjoy all of the sorrow, or suffering or humor or every other emotion life brings as much as i could have. That is what i am learning now. That life is full of "happy ending" but more than that life is a culmination of just incredible moments. And often these mo moments are not what we anticipated would be part of our "happy ending" or even journey. 

There are a lot of things about my life right now that i never imagined would be my life and well they are. In fact i think i imagined my life would be almost opposite of the way it is, but you want to know the good news? I am happier now than i have ever been. Why? because i know i have a lot of control of my life, if i don't like something it generally can be changed. I have a job i enjoy and make enough money to pay the bills and have some left over, I am loved, and i love, I am discovering what it means to LIVE. I am discovering how incredible it is to choose, how wonderful it is to just BE. I am discovering that there are endless options out there, that the world and life is just full of decisions to make and i GET to make them. I am learning what i like and what i don't like (i know it's about time), i'm learning that certain things i thought would bring me happiness don't and certain little things bring more happiness than i could have ever imagined. I'm learning that no matter what i do, God still loves me and i'm still his daughter and He sent me to earth to learn and i get to do that. My favorite line of this song is  "We all know the stories, We all know the fairy tales, We all get the glory of making it for ourselves" THAT I AM GRATEFUL FOR! that is my "happy ending."

"Happy Ending"

Cowboys ride into sunsets
The good guy always gets the girl
Cinderella has just fit
A glass slipper that changed her world

We all know the stories
We all know the fairy tales
We all get the glory of making it for ourselves

From the beginning
We're all looking for a happy ending
Every dream of winning
Every love we've been in
Right from the beginning
We're looking for a happy ending

We've come here with nothing
And take it with us the day we leave
The first and last breath don't matter
It's all the ones that are in-between
It's the reason for living
It's the reason the caged bird sings
It's why we sit in the movies
All the way to the closing scenes

From the beginning
We're all looking for a happy ending
Every dream of winning
Every love we've been in
Right from the beginning
We're looking for a happy ending

And all those dreamers who have come and gone
Who've reached for the stars, who've overcome
You're the hope, you're the wish, you're the truth
Baby, here's the proof

Baby's born in this ghetto
Baby's born with a silver spoon
One tells his Mama I have a dream
One tells his Mama I'll walk the moon

From the beginning
We're all looking for a happy ending
Every dream of winning
Every love we've been in
Right from the beginning
We're looking for

From the beginning
We're all looking for a happy ending
Every dream of winning
Every love we've been in
Right from the beginning
We're looking for a happy ending 



1 comment:

  1. Love it! Find Joy in the Journey, eh? Still working on that one, myself. So glad you are happy and loving life!

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